Uncertainty

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I follow the same routine everyday, from the moment I get up until I close my eyes. To change even a small thing I have to think it over and over again several times before doing it. What am I afraid of? I guess it is uncertainty. Uncertainty of how a new food item you have never tasted before would taste like keeps you from ever ordering that food item. You just buy the same old food item and go to same old restaurants even though a new restaurant is nearby you are afraid to go to it. So I am being boxed into a very tight space due to my fear of uncertainty.

I think it is my worse fear. Uncertainty of the future brings me creepy nightmares. The worst is when you have to decide something about your future like your career and you are presented with many choices. Then we look up to others to make our decisions for us because we are afraid of uncertainty.

So what am I going to do about it? I guess answer is simple just embrace the chaos. Make decisions spontaneously do not wait for others opinions if the decision you are going to make about is only about you like what are you going to eat now. And I guess you may get hurt, shocked, out of your comfort zone by being spontaneous, but it would be best remedy for your fear of uncertainty. So I guess this is the post out of many drafts in different topics after a very long time that I published and this is me being spontaneous.

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