You live, you learn

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There comes a time when you have to stand up for yourself and say enough is enough.
You go through life trying to please people and be nice because that’s how you’ve always been and also how you’ve been raised.
But you’re no stupid individual so you realize how every now and then people take advantage of you. It is not a ‘quid pro quo’ kind of situation but rather a one direction only.
You happily lend a hand and are available when needed unless major forces make that impossible for you to do it so.
Then there comes not only a day, but day after day after day, that you need something out of someone else and they just make up excuses and you end up alone trying to figure out a huge mess it is a tad too big for an individual to handle.
Let’s take it down a notch, shall we?
Say they call you to go grab a coffee and you are there on time and everything goes smoothly.
Then you spend months and months suggesting you could go to that Irish pub that has live music every Thursday and there’s always an excuse: I am too tired, I got no money, I’d rather stay in ‘cause it’s cold and an endless array of excuses that no preschooler would buy them.
But you buy them and think that maybe they are not available, cannot make it there. So you go back to the vicious circle and are available when needed and when you need some of your so called friends and family just because (let’s not get into details)… oh! All of the sudden they are all extra busy clipping their toe nails.
‘C’mon people!
Along comes a day that after many (MANY) years of putting up with this bullshit you sit by their side and tell them how you feel.
You tell them how you feel and no matter how much you try; they never make time for you, not once, not ever.
And then you see a blushing red face of guilt followed by lame excuses and you turn around and think to yourself:
You know what? Fuck it! I am no longer sixteen and I am no longer putting up with this stupid ongoing drama. Either you are here or you are not.
Life’s too short to be the underdog, and I can assure you I ain’t one of them.
If you want to share life with me you’ll make the effort as much as I do.
If you don’t, I’m not going to lie, I will still feel a bit sad and a tad betrayed but I sure will move onto the next chapter without looking back.
Enough of looking back. It is now time to look forward and make the best of it.
And whoever feels like yours truly, is welcome abroad.
To the rest, it’s been an interesting ride.

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