Me and my life

Health Camp organized by Medical Students' Hindu Society of our faculty was held on 24th and 25th of this month at Kahawatta Tamil Maha Vidayalyam, Ratnapura. It is my 5th medical camp, in the faculty starting from Mannar, Poonakari, Udappu, Deniyaya. As usual I was assigned to vision care. The first day was for screening of school children which was done by medical students and second day was for the public and referred school children done by doctors. It was crowded from the start till the end. Why do we have to do a free health camp in a country where a health care up to tertiary care is free. Even when government has decentralized the health care, with each province having its own general hospital with specialists. What amazes me is that people come with chronic problems and want to sort it out in one day, but all we do in the camp for them is to refer them to the hospitals. So where is the problem? It is either people are unaware of how to access health care or they are misg

I follow the same routine everyday, from the moment I get up until I close my eyes. To change even a small thing I have to think it over and over again several times before doing it. What am I afraid of? I guess it is uncertainty. Uncertainty of how a new food item you have never tasted before would taste like keeps you from ever ordering that food item. You just buy the same old food item and go to same old restaurants even though a new restaurant is nearby you are afraid to go to it. So I am being boxed into a very tight space due to my fear of uncertainty. I think it is my worse fear. Uncertainty of the future brings me creepy nightmares. The worst is when you have to decide something about your future like your career and you are presented with many choices. Then we look up to others to make our decisions for us because we are afraid of uncertainty. So what am I going to do about it? I guess answer is simple just embrace the chaos. Make decisions spontaneously do not wait for